My Little Red Wagon

When I was a little girl, I had a little red wagon, well by the time I got it, being child #6, it wasn't so red anymore and it was pretty beat up, but it still had four wheels that were more or less still round and the handle still worked even will all the rope wrapped around the handle from my older brothers trying to tie it to their bikes. I still loved it.

That wagon was as many things to me as I could imagine. It was a covered wagon when I wanted to play "Little House on the Prairie." It was my station wagon when I played "House" with all my baby dolls tucked in with their blankets. It was front row behind the home team dugout when we played ball (the baby dolls had to cheer me on). It was a dump truck when I played in the sand. It was many things, but mostly it was where I put my treasures as I went around the neighborhood. Leaves, flowers, "gold" nuggets, "silver" nuggets, bottle caps, chewed tennis balls, and sticks found their way into my wagon. I recall with fondness the day I found a bicycle reflector and taped it on the back of my wagon. It was wonderful.

Now that I’m grown up and have responsibilities (or that's what they tell my I'm supposed to have done these past almost 40 years) I still have a wagon that I get to put things I find as I walk around the neighborhood. Today I found a book on nutrition that I might want to thumb through later tonight. Yesterday, I found a website on protozoa, that might come in handy when I want to study microbiology. Sometime someone suggests something I should put in my wagon, like the scriptures. I find all sorts of wonderful stuff to put in my wagon as I take this journey called life.

Every now and then it gets a bit heavy and I need to take out some of the stuff that was once a treasure but is now baggage, or stuff that I really don't need anymore, or that I've already used and it is time for someone else to find it. That's when I sit down and examine what is in my wagon.

Today I found an article on how to study the scriptures more earnestly that I had placed in my wagon in 1999. After reading the pages, I think I will keep this one for a little while longer as I ponder on the words as I pull my wagon along. I found an article on how to potty train a child; don't need that one anymore now that my youngest is five. Out it goes to make room for something else. I'll put that in the give to someone else pile. I found an Ensign article on how to talk to teens; I knew I would need it, just didn't know when I would need it. I think I will sit down and read it from beginning to end right now since my teens and I aren't communicating so well. I found the set of scriptures I keep in my wagon, dog eared, well worn, well marked and well loved. These have yet to leave my wagon and every morning they greet me on top of my wagon load of things to ponder on, today, tomorrow or eventually.

As mothers we collect a lot of information on how to better ourselves, our families, and our relationships. Sometimes the information isn't applicable today or may even seem like it will ever be applicable to us, but if we just place it in our wagon, we can decide later to use it or toss it. Our minds can remember remarkable things if we just let them. Here is where pondering on what we have in our wagons is so important. They work even better when we listen to the Spirit direct us.

Just the other day I came upon a parenting situation where I needed something from my wagon that I had heard many moons ago. Thankfully, I hadn't tossed it and quickly found it in the dark recesses of my wagon. I quickly looked at that information that so long ago in a Homemaking Meeting was presented (see how long ago that was) and refreshed my memory. I then put what I had learned into practice.

Just the other day on a homeschooling emailing group there was a discussion on parenting techniques and how each of us use different techniques on different children, but all in the same family. I thought about the techniques I have learned about and put in my wagon to use for later.

I'm thankful I have placed them there because what isn't the key to a child's heart might be tomorrow or next year. What might work for one child might not for another, and I have a bunch of keys to try when the time comes.

As Alma tells his son, "O, remember, remember…." we too need to remember the things we place in our little red wagons that we carry around with us. What we hear about today, might not be pertinent today, but who knows what tomorrow will bring? If we listen to the Holy Spirit tell us what to put in our wagons and what to take out and when to use it or where to find it, our lives will be better because we hung on to treasures we put in our little red wagons.

Pop right out there, don't ya

There is a line in the movie A Bug's Life where the Queen Ant says, "Pop right out there, don't ya," to the pill bugs as they "pop" open.

As I drive around here on a clear day I too say, "Pop right out there, don't ya," only I say it to one of the most magnificent view in the world; Mt. Rainer on a clear day. Second and third to that view is the view of the Cascade Mountains to the east and the Olympic Mountains to the west.

Mount Rainier is truly the most beautiful sights Heavenly Father has put on this earth. What is even more fascinating is that I have lived here for 16 years and to this day when "the mountain" is in view, it is a surprise.

When we first moved here I read a newspaper article from someone who had only been here a year when her parents came from back east for a visit. As she rounded a corner on the freeway there in front of her was Mt. Rainier. She remarked to her parents, "Oh, look there it is." Her parents remarked, "Don't you see it everyday?"

Well since we don't get to see it everyday, it is a treat when we do get to see it.

Doreen

Coaches Needed

I am a volunteer coach for our local youth soccer association. I had never coached a team before until three years ago, but I have been on team with coaches since I was in grade school. That didn't qualify me as a coach, but it did help me know what I like in a coach. Of course I'm trying to be that coach I always wanted.

How I got put in the "job" is a story in itself. My husband volunteered to coach my oldest son's team when he was only 6 (he is 14 now). I was in the middle of having babies so I couldn't do it physically, but I helped Steve in his coaching techniques and was a great cheerleader. I even started a few practices when he was late coming up the hill.

There was a year of bliss when neither of us were coaching, but I was often at the field the whole time and could of, should of done it, but I was having babies. When my third son's coach told us he was moving away, we didn't want to break up such a great group of kids so I offered to be the point person until a coach could be found. No other parent stepped forward and since my youngest was two and I had older children who could keep an eye out for her, I conducted my first solo practice.

I was so nervous. I had cue cards and everything. I didn't want to mess up anything, not even the stretches. It was a great season and the boys went undefeated. The next year we added a few more kids and we improved even more. That spring I coached in the spring program that our local association puts together. I coached not only "my" team, but I also coached my youngest son's team. That was a challenge, but I had a blast.

Last fall my youngest was finally old enough to play. She was just going to play in the U6 program that met every Friday for an hour to play. I signed up to coach her team, but with the idea that I would bring my 13 year old and he would do the coaching so when he had kids he would know how to run a practice. He did a great job. The girls loved him and he loved doing it. (BTW--my soccer team improved some more and we had a fabulous season.)

Now it is spring again and I'm coaching my daughter's team, a U7. They are wearing yellow t-shirts and we call them "Sunshine." The biggest surprise was that my daughter has improved so much! I also coach "my" team this spring. Not all the boys are on the team as some are playing baseball, but I have about five players from my fall team, and 10 or so great players. It has been a joy.

Kray, the one who helped me coach the U6 last fall, has been asked to help coach a U8 team because there aren't enough parents to coach. I am thankful that he has this opportunity to learn how to coach, and do it away from my sight as we are coaching at the same time, but it still irks me that my 14 year old son has to coach. Where are the parents? Do they just think that someone else will pick up the slack?

Now maybe I have an idealist view of the world, but I believe that if you want your children to participate in a great program then you need to roll up your sleeves and get to work, or in this case, put on your cleats, grab a whistle and kick a few balls.

When I was pregnant with child number 3 (the son that I coach now), my husband was asked to be the Scout Master in our ward. At that time my oldest was just barely three and the second was only 18 months. I had one young mother look at me and ask how I could let my husband be away so often helping kids that weren't even mine. Shocked, I closed my mouth then replied, "When my boys are scouts, someone's husband will be their Scout Master and I sure hope she doesn't complain."

Was it easy to have my husband away all that time? Not at all! I needed him home, but I also knew that he was "serving his fellow men." Now there is a wife who sits at home while her husband has two of my sons out in the wilds of Washington. I sure hope she has a happy attitude because I'm so thankful to her for giving up her busy husband so that my sons can spend some great "boy time" outside.

Now it is my turn to serve my fellow man and I'm paying for the years of service that others have in my behalf and the behalf of my children. I just hope others will pick up the slack and realize that when they sign their child up for sports (or anything) that some child's parent will be coaching their son or daughter and they just might want to take a turn.

I'm just glad I love coaching the kids and my oldest son is excited to coach. I hope that all those coaches out there on the pitch know how much we as parents appreciate them.

Doreen

Come Unto Jesus

Come unto Jesus; ye heavy laden,
Careworn and fainting, by sin oppressed.
He'll safely guide you unto that haven
Where all who trust him may rest.


Today in church we sang this song and it touched my spirit today. I am very careworn and I need some rest. All I have to do is "come unto Him."

I have set myself a goal that in the six months between April's General Conference and October's I will read the Book of Mormon. I missed the challenge last year but I think I need to do it this time. I'm not making great progress, but I'm making progress.

I'll keep you posted.
Doreen

Stand Ye in Holy Places

"But my disciples shall stand in holy places, and shall not be moved…"
Doctrine and Covenants 45:32
"Wherefore, stand ye in holy places, and be not moved, until the day of the Lord come…"
Doctrine and Covenants 87:8

This weekend in Seattle, just 15 miles to the west of my home, a huge tragedy befell our community. A man decided that he was going to go on a shooting rampage and killed six people and then turned the gun on himself and took his own life. This happened at the end of an all night party. The party started Friday night at a "rave" and ended with a few "friends" at a neighborhood home. At 7:00 am Saturday morning this man went to his truck grabbed his guns and went back to the home and shot people. Among the six he killed was a 14 year old girl and a 15 year old girl.

This is a shock to this community and of course it is all over the radio, TV and in the newspaper. EVERYONE is talking about it. Even I feel the sting. I feel the sting because Friday night I knew where my 14 year old was. I knew where my 12 year old was. They were with me in my home with a four other wonderful teenagers learning how to have proper manners, then having a great dinner (I cooked it of course), then hung out and watched a movie. The whole time with me or my husband in the room. There was even an extra parent in the home with us. (This evening was an evening with LYTTS.)

As I have sat and pondered on the happenings in our community this past weekend I have had the thought that "I may not be able to protect my children from lunatic like this selfish man, but I can do my best. If it means making sure I know where my children are and giving them a safe place to hangout with friends then I will do it! I will also check thoroughly where my kids say they are going to hang out. I will not let a policeman knock on my door early one morning and give me the worst news of my life. I WILL NOT LET THAT HAPPEN!"

The kids that sat around my table Friday night do not go to raves, in fact my sons didn't even know what one was (I'm not sure I completely understand them myself). They just don't participate in that behavior. I don't think one of them would have been found at a place like that, let alone being out that late. (Our party ended at 11:00 pm.) The kids, guest included, at my home don't do drugs or drink alcohol and are pure and innocent as 12-18 years should be.

What a contrast when you think of where each group of teens where that night. I'm thankful for the gospel I have been raised with that it does matter where you are and who you are with. It matters A LOT!

As the Lord has said, "Stand ye in holy places," and I can not think of more holy place than a home with a loving father and mother who care where you are and who you hang out with and who pray for your safety and dedicated their house for the protection of their family and all who enter the doors. As the Bible Dictionary says under the heading of temple "Only the home can compare with the temple in sacredness."

May my children always remember this vivid reminder about Choosing the Right.

Doreen

Making it Mine

We moved about 9 months ago and left behind a home that we loved. It was a beautiful home and we were finally making it ours. My daughters room was painted and decorated. My bedroom was finally painted! Then we went and sold it! I wasn't going to wait another 8 years to start painting and then sell. So we are painting the kids bedrooms and will be working slowly to get the rest of the home put together.

Jessie was in a front bedroom with a very small closet. The other bedrooms were the boys and a storage room. I gave the largest room to the storage room, but it also had the best sized closet for a girl. So I had Steve pull the stuff out of the storage room, that also faced south so Jessie will finally get natural light in her bedroom. We painted it pink and pink. (I'll have pictures when we are finally done.)

The boys' bedrooms (there is a room within a room--trust me, you'll see what I mean when you see the pictures) needed to be painted. Chris and Matt's room (the big one) was orange. It really wasn't a bad color, but it just wasn't my color. The boys bought some new comforters and I picked the colors from that palette. The top color is a light tan (the earth), the bottom is a dark green (the grass) and a strip of blue (the water). In Mike's room, the small room in the back, is the same color, but his strip is cardinal. Steve thought that the blue and cardinal color made it look very less military.

Now this seems really great, but we had to prime both rooms (well, all three rooms). Jessie's new room was going from a deep tan to a lighter pink and the two boys' room was going from orange to the tan. Mike's room had wallpaper on it and we stripped it very early in our moving in (he didn't like the Little Mermaid wallpaper). The walls were properly primed (we haven't found that to be the case in our other house) so they weren't in sorry shape, but they were a pinkish white. I didn't realize it was "pink" until we put the pure white primer. The biggest obstacle was the smallness of his room, it is so small I can barely stand up in the center of the room--especially when we didn't take his bed out.

I took a lot of time to get this all done, more than I wanted it to, but that is my fault. Tonight I put on the last bit of touch up on the boys' rooms. Tomorrow I will put the furniture and stuff back in (my bedroom will be so relieved as it has had all the boy's clothes in it for almost two weeks now). After we get all the toys out of Jessie's room I will touch up her paint, Steve will put in a new closet and she will be all moved in….well almost. We still need to fix her new/old bed. But that is for another day, tonight I need to get to bed so I can put the kids' rooms back together.

Eventually this house will be mine...one room at at time.

Doreen

Anger and Frustration

WARNING: I'm going to rant! You could say this is my way of throwing a tantrum.

Three years ago some idiot (and I will call him that since he has gone missing and won't own up to what he did to me) hit me and has changed my life. I don't like what I've had to become. Ok, there are parts I sort of like, but for the most part the past three years have been hell. I want my life back! I want to go and do, not sit and watch.

These past few weeks we have been painting two kids' bedrooms. An easy task three years ago, but not now. I can barely even get the furniture out of the bedrooms without fatigue and pain. Because my husband is a slave at Microsoft he has very limited hours in which he can help me, so I try to do the preliminary stuff so he can do the painting. I taped, patched and primed Jessie's room and then paid for it by not being able to move the next day. A week later we are in Matt, Chris and Mike's rooms and this time I thought I would take it easy. I still did a bit and am paying for it. All I want to do is a simple stripe and before I get a three foot section done, my arm goes numb!

About a year ago I wrote a letter to the man who hit me and as I sit and read it again, nothing has changed. I still hate what he has done to me. I still spend four days a week in therapy--painful therapy. I have undergone surgeries to have pain taken away. They have worked, but when that pain is gone, they then find the next layer (where we are at today).

Things I can no longer do because it hurts: wash mirrors, water ski or tube, jump on a trampoline, garden, sit and spend hours sewing, spend hours surfing the web, mow a lawn, hold a baby, clean the house, iron a shirt, spend hours playing the piano, and I'm sure there are others that I can't remember. Believe it or not, but I love to do all these things. (I would add spend time cooking--but then I would lie because I don't like to cook.)

Shall I add the mental anguish: driving in fear (I still do--won't even drive Steve's car), depression, stupid hair styles, doctor's & therapist's conflicting advice, gaining weight, too much time spent on me not my family and the money worries.

I don't even want to start with how much this has cost us. We are close to $100,000 just in medical bills. If I was to add all the extras that this has cost us it would be frightening. I think of all the things I could have done to save us money but instead I was spending it on therapy and things to make my life easier. The hot pads, ice packs, frozen dinners, all those dinners out, all the yard work that doesn't get done or I have to pay children to do, ditto on house work (but that ok, we don't have money to pay the children anyway), etc.

But I think the thing that hurt the worse was last night when my husband came to bed complaining of aches and pains from his weekend of painting and working around the house. Those aches and pain shouldn't be there--those are mine. His worries are at his job, not at home. I'm the one who is supposed to take care of making our home a wonderful place. I just want to say, I'm so sorry Steve. I didn't want to get hit, I didn't plan on getting hit, I didn't want us to go through this hell and I'm so sorry that the 9 months they first told us has come and gone and gone again and again, and I'm still not better. This effects the whole family and I'm so sorry. I wish I could keep this from the family, but unfortunately I can't and we have to live with it.

Boy do I wish this would end! I want to do the things that I enjoyed. As I realized a few months ago while I was watching my kids have a blast on a slip-n-slide that when I sit and watch it is maybe a 3 on a scale of 1-10 (10 being the best) and 5 when I see that my kids are having a blast. But knowing that when I did it with my kids it was a 10--it HURTS!

Well, that was my major tantrum for the day. I've wiped the tears from my face, reapplied my make-up and I will sit and watch while my husband paints the bedroom, put up the closet organizer and try not to start crying again.

Doreen

The Coffee Shop

I was so embarrassed, today while I was running errands with my 5 year old girl we stopped at the local Starbucks to get ourselves some hot chocolate. It is sort of our tradition when we go to the local craft store that is in the same parking lot. As I got out to help her out, I noticed my reflection in the very dirty van. I had a BYU shirt on! I can't walk into a coffee shop with a "Mormon" shirt on. Thankfully I had a jacket on that I could zip up. I could hold my head up as a good Mormon and go into a coffee shop.

We ordered our hot chocolates, cookie and muffin--our tradition. We sat outside in the almost sunshine sipping our chocolates and enjoying our treats. I'm so glad I had my sweatshirt even though it wasn't chilly.

Doreen

Noise

My house is full of noise. With six children (five boys & one girl) I don't think there is ever a moment when our house is quiet. Even during the night someone is making noise. (I think there are at least four of us who snore & someone is always going to the bathroom.) I should also add that we have a four pound watch dog who takes his responsibility to bark at any noise very seriously. Just now he is barking because the boys just got back from skiing and they are making a lot of noise getting into the house. I don't mind the noise, I kind of like it. Of course having a silent moment every now and then would be nice, but I think I would miss the noise. I'll let you know when I get that moment.

Today, I spent four hours putting primer on the walls of Jessie's bedroom. During this time, Jessie made sure I had good music to listen to. I listened to the CD that has all the primary songs on it for this years sacrament program. I then listened to "My Little Pony" doing something with, princesses, rainbows and bracelets. I then listened to Barbie's "Princess and Pauper" music CD. Lastly I had the pleasure of listening to "Disney Princess." (Do you detect a theme with her?) Of course I had to listen very closely because she would be asking me questions about what was going on. I think she has listened closely in "class" and knows the trick of question asking to see if someone is listening. Of course I flunked today. My mind was thinking of other things primarily, "I'm so glad I'm not a painter for real; this sucks!"

When I was finished, we turned the CD player off and cleaned up. I then took up the power sander and sanded the old finish off her "new" bed. The power sander is quite loud and I soon began lost in my thoughts. I had forgotten how wonderful it is to get lost in noise. I like mowing the lawn for this reason. With the engine so loud you can't hear anyone who is talking to you. You are lost in your own thoughts.

In my head, I hear my own voice speaking. I actually like the sound of my voice when it speaks in my head. It is rather beautiful. I love the words it speaks. I have often written some wonderful letters and stories when there was a lot of noise around me. I'm just sorry I forget them as soon as the machine is turned off.

I drive a large van and the engine can sometimes do the same thing as a lawn mower. One trip in particular, I think I wrote the first three chapters to my "Great American Novel." I'm just really sorry I couldn't write and drive at the same time.

I wonder what my house will be like in 20 years when all my children are gone? Will there be grandchildren here to make noise? Will I miss the noise? Will I be making my own noise so I can think? (My mom has to have a radio on so she won't feel "alone.") Will I ever finish "The Great American Novel?" I don't know how much noise will my husband make---I'm sure not enough. Oh, well; maybe I won't be a writer after all.

Bring on the noise; I need to think.

Doreen

A Married Single Mom

This isn't to rag on my husband but on society and especially the condition of the work place where my husband has chosen to be employed.

Sixteen years ago when we took this job (and yes, I consider our marriage to be a partnership and so does my husband so we consulted together to make this decision) Steve promised to make family a priority. Fast forward to 2006, six children, a large mortgage and a never ending "crunch" mode at work; his family is still a priority, at least I think. He realizes that to support this family he must pull in a salary, pay the bills as well as be home to visit with his children at least once in a blue moon. BUT…….

This single motherhood thing is growing very, very tiring and weary. Yes, I'm married to him, committed to him and love him to death, but it doesn't make being a single mom every night enjoyable. In fact it is awful hard to be a single mom and still be married. A real single mom doesn't have to work around a husband's schedule. She doesn't have to wonder if her meal that she prepared because her husband likes it will go to waste--she doesn't prepare meals her husband likes because he doesn't live there. A single mom doesn't know if she should hold family prayer and scripture time or wait for dad to show up or even if he is going to show up. A single mom doesn't have to work around a weekend working schedule. If she wants to paint the room, then she paints it without wondering if he is going to show up to help her---he isn't going to help because he isn't there. A single mom just goes on vacation when she wants to, she doesn't have to wait for "down time" or see how many vacation days are given this year; she just goes!

I kind of like what I see from those real single moms. They get every other weekend without any children. Wow! How clean would my house be then? How many of those projects that I have put off would I get done? How much sleep would I be able to catch up on?

Ok, the other side of the coin that goes with doing this single stuff for real isn't that exciting either. Lawyers, court dates, hearing, custody battles, money issues and all the other stuff I have no idea about just doesn't out weigh the advantages, so I guess Steve is lucky. He will still have a warm bed to come home tonight; just wish the kids could get to see him soon. But I really wish I could see him.

I guess he is ultimately responsible for how he spends his time, but then again, he doesn't put in the time and produce the work then he doesn’t have a job. But the company he works for does ask a lot of my husband and the pay has gone down hill for the past six years. At one time I didn't mind because we were compensated so well (and he works for a better division) but now I'm complaining. If what he tells me about his job is true, he doesn't even like working there---so why does he continue to work there? Yes, we have great insurance coverage and we used to have great stock options, but they aren't adding up any more. Because he is under a lot of pressure he isn't liking his job so much anymore, at least that is what I surmise from his conversations with me with both eyes open and with my make up on and something besides my jammies on.

Is there a company out there who would employ my husband, pay him a good salary and let him come home before 10pm every night? The kids bed time is 9 and we try to have dinner on the table between 6 and 7 (depending on who I'm running where and when---oh, it would be nice not to have to take everyone to everything). If you know of one, please let me know. I'm tired of being a Married Single Mom.

Just for proof. The children saw their dad (my husband) Monday night (but he didn't sit down to have dinner with us---he was too late) and I let them stay up late Wednesday night so they could see him. Tonight (Thursday) he won't see the children and Friday he won't see the children either. I guess it will be Saturday, unless he has to work.

Doreen

PS--Please do not think I want to get rid of Steve. I truly love him. Today was just a hard day and I could have used my partner in crime here at the home front. I also want all the divorced or single mother (and father with primary custody) out there to know that I do not take lightly your position. In fact I hurt for you when I realize what a very hard job you have to do day in and day out. My hat is off to you. You have angels waiting to sing your praises. May the Lord bless you with extra patience and love for your family.

Yellow Flowers

Across the street at our old house was a house with a yard full of dandelions. With permission from the owner, my children use to pick all the "yellow flowers" their little hands could hold. I have always told them I love those "yellow flowers" so bring me every one you find. I just never tell them it is weeding.

Today while waiting for her brothers to be finished with art class, Jessie was playing in the local schools play ground and parking lot. She noticed a bunch of "yellow flowers" and proceeded to pick them for me (and her). Before I knew what she was doing she was at the van window with a dozen daffodils, "Mom, look yellow flowers for you."

They look very pretty on my kitchen counter in a mason jar filled with water, but I do have to say the prettiest thing was the smile on a little girl in her ballet outfit peeking out behind a fist full of "yellow flowers." I sure hope the school doesn't notice them gone and will excuse a little girl making her mother happy.

Doreen

Alex

When I was down in bed recovering from surgery and then an extra week with bronchitis I had a lot of time to sit and write poetry. Because he was constantly with me I wrote quite a few poems about our dog, Alex. (He also couldn't complain or gripe that I wrote something about him like his human siblings.) He truly is a very funny dog and does about all the things I wrote about here.

Hope you enjoy.

Alex (Haiku)
by Doreen Blanding
In the early spring
To those who chase cotton tails
Slumber comes easy

Alex
by Doreen Blanding
One day in walked a little fur ball
Ne’r did I think my heart would fill
With love for something so very small
He waits for me on the window sill
He has learned to be our friend
To run and fetch a tossed ball
He waits for all to come in the end
And chases leaves in the fall
He loves to keep us sound and safe
Barks at every sound at the gate
Even as our four pound waif
He thinks he’s Alex the Great.

by Doreen Blanding
Alex
Tiny, dog
Running, jumping, chasing
Canine, Terrier, Bunny, Hare
Hopping, munching, scurrying
Fluffy, Rabbit
Peter

Alexander the Great
by Doreen Blanding
I see him from a far chasing that bunny
All the time we laugh because he is so funny.
We watch him chase a leaf across the lawn
He even scratches glass trying to scare the fawn.
He is small in stature but can jump a large log
We love our Alexander because he is our dog.

The Attack
by Doreen Blanding
Upon his haunches he waits
Muscles rippling on his back
Yellow stained teeth ready to grab
Instinct tells him to bound and strike
The unexpected prey
A leaf

Doreen

Poetry continued--GRATITUDE

I took the letters of the alphabet and tried my hand at something different. I thought of something I was most grateful for. It may look pretty easy, but it really was hard because some of the letters I had two, three or even four things I was thankful but I could only choose one. Another rule I had was I couldn't use any proper nouns. You might want to try it.

Gratitude
by Doreen Blanding
Air
Books
Church
Daughters
Earth
Faith
Gospel
Husbands
Intelligences
Joy
Knowledge
Love
Muscles
Neighbors
Opposition
Pain
Quiet
Rocks
Sons
Teachers
Understanding
Victories
Water
X-ray
Youth
Zion

Doreen

To My Mother

This poem I wrote as I was thinking about my wonderful mother. She has this bulletin board in her bedroom that she keeps the current pictures of her family on and I can just envision her turning her chair around and smiling as she looks at those pictures and then a tear comes to her eyes as she sees in those grandkids her own sweet children many, many moons ago doing the same things her grandkids are doing--hamming for a photo.

I love you mom!

Family History
by Doreen Blanding
Pictures of by gone years
Hang upon the wall.
Eyes with loving tears
Look, walking the hall.

Doreen

My Plea - Let Them Sleep!

As our family has been fighting some pretty nasty coughs, I have a plethora of different cough syrups lining our medicine cabinet. As I gave a dose to a child I noticed that the bottle gave this warning, "will not cause drowsiness." Later that night I opened my personal medicine cabinet and noticed that out of the 5 medicines I take each night all but one said, "Caution, may cause drowsiness."

Now somehow this is all wrong. I don't know very many mothers who want their children to be awake when they are sick. I for one want my children to sleep when they are cranky, feverish, and down right not happy. I, on the other hand, NEED to stay awake when I'm sick. I need to drive the kids to their different activities and it is very hard to do that when your eyelids want to fall down and you have NO CONTROL over them. How can I fix dinner when I'm afraid to turn the stove on? I will just sit down at the kitchen table to check over the recipe and the next thing I know I'm awakened to the sounds of fire engines screaming down the road heading to my house.

When will the pharmaceutical companies get it straight? Children's medications need to be laced with drowsy stuff and parent's medications need non-drowsy stuff put in them. PLEASE for every mother out there….let the sick children sleep.

Doreen

My Love

To know me is to know that I love to read. I love to read just about anything and everything. I read history books, science books, cook books, boring books, boy books, girls books, western books, mystery books, alphabet books, picture books, photography books, thriller books, gospel books, sappy books, poetry books, travel books, phone books, quote books, spelling books, grammar books, books on books and any book. In fact to end a perfect date is to end with a trip to the book store. When my husband and I were still at school our favorite place was to end up at the library. It really hurts my feelings and I take it as a personal insult that our local library closes its doors at 6 pm on Friday nights. Don't they know that is where I want to hang out on Friday night!

I love to read so much I belong to two physical book clubs and a couple of online book clubs. I would go to more, but I just can't fit anymore books into my life when you consider that I have to read a couple books just for my homeschool.

I would love to write a book so I know what it is like to do it, but right now it isn't the time to write a book, just dreaming will have to suffice right now. But I did write a few poems about books.

My Library
by Doreen Blanding
Books are my friends, my confidants, my love.
They speak to me as if given from above.
They teach me of things close and far away,
Times gone past, people, and what they say.
They entertain and plant the seed
Of all the great things that I may need.


A Book
by Doreen Blanding
I read books by candle light.
I smile as tells are told.
I cry as loves are lost.
I scream as villains triumph.
I cheer as heroines conquer.
I chuckle at their folly.
I squirm as trouble comes.
I sleep when it is dull.
I turn the pages until,
I sob when the end comes.

Doreen

In a Child's Bed

Here is another poem that I wrote. This one was inspired in the middle of the night when my daughter asked me to come lie down with her in her bed becuase she had a bad dream. My mind started spinning and it wouldn't stop. I grabbed her notebook and wrote down a couple of lines before I heard her deep rhythmic breathing that meant she was asleep. I went to my bed and wrote a few more lines before drifting off to sleep. Over the next few weeks I continued to write my thoughts, revise and eventually came up with this gem. I am acutally pretty pleased with the way it came out.

Doreen

In a Child's Bed
by Doreen Blanding
In a child's bed many wonderful things can happen.
The tiny bundle of pink is placed softly down
With parent’s lovely dreams for a happy future.

In a child's bed many wonderful things can happen.
When daylight is filtered through the blinds
A pirate stands looting the treasure amidst the stuffed bears.

In a child's bed many wonderful things can happen.
When moonlight reflexes off the glass ballerina on the sill
A princess bed with golden hair flowing over the silken pillows.

In a child's bed many wonderful things can happen.
As midnight strikes the chimes downstairs
A mother's arms comfort a troubled mind and her lips touch a worried forehead.

In a child's bed many wonderful things can happen.
When illness strikes a small body racking it with chills
A healing kiss is bestowed upon a fevered brow.

In a child's bed many wonderful things can happen.
When brothers and sister join the fun
A castle with knights guarding the King's gold.

In a child's bed many wonderful things can happen.
As a father sits on the edge with a book in hand
The characters come alive through the melodic sound of his telling.

In a child's bed many wonderful things can happen.
As her youthful friends come to visit
A place where secrets are told of beautiful young men and magic make-up.

In a child's bed many wonderful things can happen.
As her heart is broken over a first love lost
A mother's warm hug and listening ear lessens the sting.

In a child's bed many wonderful things can happen.
When she comes back after years gone past with suitcase in hand
Smiles, wedding dress, flowers, shoes, and sparkling diamonds replace the bears.

In a child's bed many wonderful things can happen.
The tiny bundle of pink is placed softly down
With parent’s lovely dreams for a happy future.

In a child's bed many wonderful things can happen.
A cycle that never ends happens in a child's bed.

WALDSFE Conference 2006

Since 2000 I have put on or helped put on a yearly LDS Homeschool Conference. I almost didn't do this, but I signed on the dotted line yesterday. Every year I think of all the work, money, and energy that goes into it and think maybe I shouldn't do it again. Each year the numbers go down and I'm afraid that we won't break even. For a few years it wasn't a problem, but of late, it has become a problem.

I'm not sure why I'm going it again this year except I feel it is my duty as a veteran homeschooler to continue the tradition. I also feel that there are many out there who need help getting their feet under them. There are other who need a pick me up. The ones who I want so desperately to come are those who "have been there done that" but don't come because they think they know it all. I will disagree. I've been at this for 14 years and every conference I go to I learn something new or in a different way that can help me. But the most important thing I get from conferences is the knowledge that I'm not the only one and there is a sense of strength in our synergy.

So here I go again, putting together another homeschool conference. I just hope it is the best yet.

Doreen

Blurred Boundaries

I have spent the better part of the past two weeks in front of the TV every night watching NBC coverage of the XX Olympics. I love sports (as those who have read my blog for some time already know) and this is just a blast. I love the winter Olympics and now that I know how to ski (or at least I think I do) it is even more fun to watch them.

What has impressed upon me this time through the Olympics is how the boundaries of nations have become so blurred. I'm sure I won't site all the blurring, but I will point out some of the obvious ones.

A Canadian figure skater just granted US citizenship to compete with her US partner.
A Russian figure skater now a US citizenship to compete with his US partner (who also happens to be his wife).
A Turkish figure skater who has trained for the past 8 years in Canada.
The Russian pair skaters who train in New Jersey.
A Georgian figure skater who trains in Moscow.
Canadian ice dancing pair trains in France.
A Venezuelan luger who lives in Idaho.
An Italian figure skater who was born and raised in the US, married to a US citizen, lives in the US, but stakes for her parents home country.
Need I talk about the hockey teams? Who knows where these men's live, they all skate for a NHL team in North America.
Even the women of hockey has them all over North America playing for colleges and universities not in their home country.
Very few athletes need to have an interrupter on hand when interviewed. Even their parents in the "spotlight" pieces speak English.

When I was a little girl you "hated" the Russians, East Germans and any other eastern block country. It was something you taught from the cradle.

Now that has all changed. Walls have come down, country boundaries have been redrawn, the world has shrunk. Pretty soon the whole world will be a big melting pot of God's creations.

Doreen

Life Lines

I tried my hand at another poem I titled Life Lines and dedicate to my children.

Life Lines
by Doreen Blanding
What are those lines I see
Staring so faintly back at me?
Lines around my clear blue eyes,
From worries of the days gone by.
Lines around the mouth I fear,
From smiling, giggling from ear to ear.
Lines on knuckles snarled with scars,
From driving with our teens in cars.
Lines in places not many view,
From babies that were long ov'r due.
Lines of love, joy, worries and fears,
Because I've loved you all these years.

Doreen